hes my everything <3

have you ever loved someone? like can honestly sit there, and say you love someone with everything you have and can trust them with everything? i fell inlove with a kid in 8th grade, and haven’t felt different since.here’s my story. yanno, it was different for me to feel like this. i’m known all throughout people as the girl who can never be taken seriously and the one who has trust issues and who can never commit to anyone. i was more of the party girl, and the one who just didnt care because she has been hurt so many times.. but when i first laid eyes on shane, in 8th grade, i knew he was someone who could change me. i never thought i would ever date him, because we didnt date until my senior year in highschool. we have always been so close and we always had feelings for eachother, but everytime we tried to become a couple.. something or someone always got in the way; for instance, the first time we wanted to date, i was bestfriends with the girl who had just broken up with him, and since im a loyal person i didnt date him because i didnt want to loose my friend. and the second time this happened„ i lost all my friends because i decided that what i wanted was something that was going to make me happy, and if that meant loosing all my friends, well then thats what it had to come to. at the end of my senior year, i had no friends.. i had my boyfriend that i finally wanted to be with since 8th grade, and i was happy.. it sucked that my senior year had to end like it did, but in order for me to be happy, i had to do what was right for me. i was tortured.. i had everyone all my friends hating me, and it was a living hell for me. i eventually confronted the girl who made my senior year a living hell, and we became civil. at this point in time, i knew that i could finally be happy the right way. me and him have been dating since may 5, and its honestly been the best 3 months ever. he came on vacation with me and my family, and that just ended my summer so great. he left for college and i was really upset about that. i didnt know what was gunna haappen between us, i, of course, dont want anyone else, i would rather sit home everynight and work then go out and have guys looking at me. he is the only one i want to be with, and hes the only one who has ever made me feel the way i do. i cant look at any other guys the same, and i dont even want to. he knows everything about me and i know everything about him. i can honestly with my whole heart say i trust him more than anything, and thats probably the best feeling ever. i love him with everything and he means the world to me.